Sunday, May 19, 2013

Stuck

I have been feeling rather stuck lately (and by lately, I mean for the last 6 weeks). I don't quite know what I want to do, but this isn't it. As I've written before, I was essentially forced into contract work after my department was closed by the not-for-profit I worked for. Although it's been two months since we received the news, I feel as though I'm still going though the cycles of grief.

A bigger part of me than I thought is angry. I expected better of them, perhaps stupidly, because they're a non-profit. I bought into the line they fed me that "it's not about the money, it's about the kids." (This was true, until it was about the money...for them.) I feel frustrated and angry that I did so much work for them without recognition or compensation. I'm especially disgusted with them after I found out they're passing off my work as theirs and using it to advertise the same services I provide.

I don't know what I want to do, but I don't think this is it.